Blackwall doesn't ever see her doing anything like that, being anything less than the woman she has been so far. He can't imagine that she would suddenly change and become prideful or glorified or whatever else people in power often become. Revenge-seeking. Unworthy.
No, he sees the opposite in her. All the same, his response comes immediately.
"Of course. We all need someone to keep our feet on the ground."
And every day, she's giving him more reasons to be a good person, too. More reasons to keep trying to be better than what he was, to make up for that one mistake. Coin for a job like that never buys anything but guilt. Blood money.
He feels sick thinking about it, so he doesn't. Instead, he pulls himself back to the woman in front of him, though she's not much better. In a different way, but also related. She reminds him of what he can never have. So he clamps down on whatever it is that he might want and sticks with what he deserves.
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No, he sees the opposite in her. All the same, his response comes immediately.
"Of course. We all need someone to keep our feet on the ground."
And every day, she's giving him more reasons to be a good person, too. More reasons to keep trying to be better than what he was, to make up for that one mistake. Coin for a job like that never buys anything but guilt. Blood money.
He feels sick thinking about it, so he doesn't. Instead, he pulls himself back to the woman in front of him, though she's not much better. In a different way, but also related. She reminds him of what he can never have. So he clamps down on whatever it is that he might want and sticks with what he deserves.
And that is nothing.